It feels helpless

I’m 19 I have a 2 year old and am currently almost 5 months pregnant with our other child I have had an ED since the age of 11 I have a lot of trauma I was molested by two different men and then raped once i was a teen by a much older guy these things made me really hate myself and body I’m insecure and not comfortable with alot of things I’ve been trying very hard to feel more comfortable with myself my father is also a huge pig who never respected my mother at all he watches porn like it’s tv and talks to other women makes comments etc so I really hate that I feel like I’m being treated kind of like this now I noticed like almost all my bf follows on tik tok are half naked girls and thirst trap accounts posting girls shaking their boobs and asses etc you name I told him it made me very uncomfortable and he spends SO MUCH time on tik tok watching this stuff he hides it from me I never freaked out about It I told him it disgusted me and made me feel uncomfortable that is all and i asked him to please delete the account (he follows almost 400 of them) I’m going through a lot right now my mommom is about to pass away I’m 4 months pregnant dealing with all of these body changes and i feel like crap about myself he isn’t there for me he just tells me to stop crying about my insecurities and I should stop being so insecure for a back story I also caught him with a girl he “used” to like TWICE hanging out with her he drove 2 hours to do so. But anyway he logged out of the tik tok account and made a new one well today I told him I notice his sound off and him not watching tik tok in front of me once again anymore he said he logged back into his old account and I can get over it I’m an Asshole and it broke me because i finally thought it was out of the way but nope. I just needed to rant I’m sorry I just feel like he doesn’t respect me at all and does not care about my boundaries.