TTC Journey

Suddenly and unknowingly in Septmber, literally after my boyfriend’s 26th birthday miscarrying after surprising him (in August) and us telling both families in September has truly been something.. I was 8 weeks and 6 days, I miss my baby so much. This would have been our first child, We are trying again but it just hurts so much because I blamed myself, I had so many questions.. We had a follow-up appointment and I discovered I had small cysts on my one of my ovaries but my Dr told me I can still get pregnant, I also have irregular periods and she did suggest I begin fasting, but she did suggest if nothing happens to try medicine that can help me ovulate, if need be. This is my ovulation period and I ovulate officially on the 11th. I want nothing but a beautiful baby, I know in my heart I was meant to be a mother. Before pregnancy and during I’ve had dreams of my grandparents and I still do, my grandfather’s birthday is on the 16th, my Nana’s is Christmas eve.. Maybe things will turn around.. I’m in college (online), I work, I live with my bf, things are great but I feel so empty, I’m dealing with it and getting better but part of me still wants to know why me… I want nothing but happy and healthy little baby. I know I’ll be a great mother. 🙏🏼💙💕