Giving up

Breann
So I have made a decision. 
I have three children and my partner has one: totally 4 children total : 3 girls and one boy. 
After trying for about 3 months, (I know that is a small amount of time), feeling owned by the daily pee on a stick , I was told by my OB/GYN that I have a complex 5cm cyst on uterus and it is causing me to not become pregnant and causing the pain I am experiencing. 
I am choosing to accept the fact that God gave me my children at a younger age, and them back to back for a reason; then gave me an amazing partner that brought the only boy into our home. 
So after the hurt and disappointed I have caused on bot myself, my girlfriend and our kids: I am going to have the surgery to have the cyst removed and continue on with competing in bodybuilding.  
God has a way of showing and telling us...