My mental state is going through it right now. Me and husband have been trying for over 2 years. Had a lost last year via ectopic and I just can't wrap my head around why I can't get pregnant. Well I know why and its cause my tubes are blocked. I had the surgery to unblock them but it was unsuccessful. The Dr said he tried but couldn't unblock them. The whole time I was pregnant. Lost that baby due to ectopic. My mental state is thing a toll on me and I cant stop breaking down. Today just isn't the best of days for me. I have talked to my sister in law with whom I can confid in. I've talked to my mom. The thing is I've done it all. I've been optimistic and gotten Negative after Negative. I've kept my faith alive believing that God got us in due time. I've stopped trying for a while ( that old legend of stop trying and it'll happen). I've prayed. I've taken meds. I just don't know. <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> is freaking expensive and its not fair to have to pay all that money and it may not work...then your butt out without the money or a kid. I dont get why <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> takes so much money....what do I have pay up to 20k to prove a can care for a kid. ( venting here sorry). I just don't know why is it that I can stable. Married, house, car . FINANCIALLY STABLE and can't get pregnant...and not to shame anyone at all...its people thats not and are able to conceive. I dont get it. What am I doing so wrong in life ? What have I done so wrong in my life for God to keep the thing I want most from me. Im sorry yall... im just having a infertility breakdown.