Disappointed

I really hoped this would be my month.. my husband and I have been trying to give our almost 5 year old a sibling since June or July. I’m almost 38, so I keep worrying that maybe it’s too late for another baby. I love Christmas and my period was due on Christmas eve but it came early … I was really hoping to be able to announce a pregnancy this Christmas 😞.. I was already disappointed because family plans have been changed, again, thanks to Covid, but I was still hoping for some good news.. and then my period had the nerve to show. I’m trying to think positive and be content with the blessings I have, but I can’t help feeling disappointed.