Gender disappointment

So I am having such gender disappointment which is a surprise even to me because my husband wanted a boy and I just wanted healthy. But idk I cant explain it I'm so disappointed I dont even want to buy clothes, its like we will be starting over and having to rebuy everything and I cant help but be disappointed by it and how much of a hassle it will be. And any comments that mention how I should be grateful for any baby at all will be deleted and ignored. These are my feelings and they are disappointed.