4th loss - 3rd in a row…

Hello. I unfortunately need to leave this group i have been so cautiously optimistic and happy to be a part of.

I have been wrecked with anxiety and fear since i found out i was pregnant in November. I have one healthy almost 3 year old which resulted from a perfectly healthy and “normal”

pregnancy. Other than that- our journey has been bruised by loss after loss. I was guarding myself and im not sure I fully accepted this pregnancy yet ..but all signs were good as we saw the heartbeat two weeks ago. Today at my 9 week appointment — I heard those same words that have haunted me. “I’m so sorry, there is no heartbeat.”

I really am in shock. Although I knew this was a possibility and was somewhat preparing for it— I still had hope somewhere. Now that’s gone.

Now I get to decide how to complete this pregnancy. Pills or another d&c. Something is wrong, this isnt just bad luck anymore. I’m so broken and not sure if I can keep doing this.

Sorry for the rant. Thanks for reading to the end. I wish you all the best of luck in your pregnancies. Xo ❤️