Emotional Reck and Heartbroken

Hello lovely moms hope you all are doing wonderful. Lately I’m been feeling so heartbroken. My birthday is January 3 this Monday coming up. Im use to my big brother calling and wishing me a happy birthday and asking me what u want but instead we lost him April 20, 2020 and it still hurts. My last photo I gave of him pop up on my timeline on my phone when I was on my death bed and he came to see me and told me to push through. This is killing me softly and I miss him so much. I don’t know if it’s just because of the hormones or my actual depression but it’s hard to keep it together. I’ve been in and out the hospital for the last 2 weeks. 1 time for vaginal bleeding and 3 days ago for being tested positive for COVID from my coworkers at my job. This has been a bumpy ride for me but I’m a firm believer that everything will be okay. Me and this baby we are strong and we are going to push through. 4 days til my birthday and my 1st child and a single parent but I’m so blessed to celebrate a new year and my birthday with he or she.