I’m one of those people who care about what others think of me and I’ve gotten so depressed because of it. Lately I’ve felt like shit because I haven’t moved up in life. I’ve did the same job since I was probably 18 and I’m 30 now. I feel like I’m good at what I do so I just stuck with it. I did go to school to be a medical assistant but I felt like I wasn’t good at it and gave up on getting a job in that field. I have anxiety so whenever I’m put under pressure I shut down I feel like I want to be perfect but I’m not. Someone made a comment to me at my job saying it’s time for you to move up. I said well I will but I’m good at what I do. I felt like shit because everyone thinks I should be doing something better making more money but I’m holding myself back. People ask me oh why don’t you do this job or that job. I’m always feeling pressured my grandfather always asking me about going back to school Everytime I talk to him and he came to my apartment over the summer and he didn’t say anything to me but he had called me by a mistake and left a message saying I should be in a better apartment. My apartment is very clean, furnished with money I saved it’s nice the neighborhood is not the best but the cost of living is so high. But yeah I feel like a huge failure