So depressed

I am so depressed, more today than 2 days ago. My husband thinks I'm being ridiculous because I was almost 6 weeks. He doesn't get it, to me I had a life forming, just because there were a bunch of cells mashed together doesn't mean it wasn't there. He doesn't get this pain, I have been wanting another baby for 2 years now! He doesn't get how much it hurts to see and hear someone else is pregnant. Now after I stopped bc it seemed like I'd never get pregnant and I did! I couldn't believe it but I also had a feeling I knew I would miscarry it. And I did, a week lady, I still feel so beyond upset over this. I guess too bc I don't feel like I'm getting enough emotional support from my husband. I kind of think he's happy it didn't work out. Those 2 years I wanted another baby he'd tell everyone how he absolutely doesn't want another child. Then he'd hold a cousin baby and go go ga ga over it but it was like he'd stab me in my heart... maybe I'm just mad and blaming this on him. I'm so scared this will just happen again but later in the pregnancy and it will just rip me apart.