Anyone else struggling with accepting your weight gain?

This is my 4th. I'm at my heaviest because I had gotten pregnant after 2 back to back miscarriages where I gained a little weight. I've also gained more overall at this point than any of my other pregnancies. I'm up 32 lbs at 30 weeks. My doctor isn't concerned. I just feel so much bigger, and everyone comments on how much bigger I look this time compared to my other 3 pregnancies where I barely showed until like 32 weeks. They don't say it in a mean way, I just take it offensively because I struggle.

I don't even want to leave the house or put regular clothes on. I only have to go to church on Sundays and meetings on Mondays, then I stay home with my kids, but I dread even doing that.

Anyone have any encouragement? I know I will lose the weight after this because I always do, but it's so hard for me. I've struggled with negative body image issues my entire life.