So nervous and anxious

Freya • 👼🏻 20.07.17 at 7 weeks 🌈👦🏼💙 Kit 29.12.18 👦🏻💙 Theo 06.09.20 👼🏻 💙 Jude 24.07.21 at 20 weeks 🌈👶🏻 💗 Lyra 14.09.22 🤰🏻due 01.02.24

So I have found out I’m pregnant but I’m super anxious as my son was stillborn in the summer and since I have had 3 chemicals.

The difference this time is that I have a positive digital and the strip test lines are super dark whereas they were faint before and never got darker.

Im just so worried and I am in a cycle where I want to keep testing to see progression but at the same time I don’t in case I see it getting lighter 😩.

Does anyone have any advice for me to get through this stage?