Baby Blues

I guess I just need to vent, I've had the worst baby fever lately. I love babies so I would randomly get baby fever sometimes. This time is much worse I've been having baby fever for over four months straight and it just wont go away. I'm a single mom to a young boy, but I long to have a little girl so bad. I've been exclusively dating the same guy for over two years now. But he isnt ready to have any childern anytime soon. We dont even live together or anything, so thats out of the question. I sometimes look at baby clothes online, and it makes me kinda sad lol I want a baby so bad, but Im in no situation to right now. Dont know if I'll ever be and thats what depresses me. I wish I had a friend or somthing I could babysit for lol but no one Im close to has had a baby in years. My son has been the last baby I've held and that was 4 long years ago. I keep seeing women showing of their baby bumps on here, and I want a baby soo bad! Has anyone ever felt like this or am I going crazy lol I've even thought about getting into fostering... Someone Please help me lol!!😩