So, i just had my first sexual experience a few days ago, i was eagerly awaiting for that moment, i even researched on how i can satisfy my man like how to do blowjobs and the techniques, been watching porn as a research material on doing blowjobs, i had shaved, scrubed myself clean all for that moment, then when that moment came it was utter disappoint. I absolutely did not enjoy it, i even specified that hygiene is important, but he did not even wash his parts and it stank a bit to think he even told me my blowjob was good for a first timer. Then on to the sex part, it was horrible, i even said that it was my first time and it hurts but he was rough so and all i felt was pain.

Now a few days later the soreness and pain was gone, but im now kinda afraid to engage in sex again due to my first time being a bar one. Asking for advice if i should try again one of these days or abstain for a while?