Hi so i had a miscarriage in October and it completely destroyed me i had been ttc for the last 3 yrs its now January and i dislike kids so much i dont want to hear them cry or the tantrums i even got on BC because of thought of birthing a child makes me cringe 😢 i dont want to feel like this i have a 5 yr old and she’s a sweetheart but sometimes when she’s been talking all day and its already 7 pm i dont want to be around her anymore i also dont want to hurt her feelings but she loves being close to me always i feel like the worst mother ever idk wht to do 😭 im going crazy