Help!

Nikatta

Hey everyone, I’m new to the group and let’s just say it was an accident me getting here.. I’m a mother of 2 kids with 2 bds, yes I left them both because of abuse and so much more. But now I’m starting to feel as if maybe I’m the issue… I’m not sure what I’m doing wrong but here I am again pregnant with baby number 3, 10 weeks pregnant by a man I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with… comes to find out he’s MARRIED! And wants nothing to do with me and now I’m stuck.. I’ve been so depressed because he really played a good role! He had me floating in the clouds over him all to Find out he’s married. I’ve been to his place, he’s been to my place. I’ve met his kids and his father. He’s met mine. We have stuff at each other’s places and I never picked up on him having a wife. Anyways, I’m just so lost and confused and hurt and just need to hear the truth. Is it me? What am I doing wrong?? Please be blunt and honest, it’s the only way I’ll learn.