I was diagnosed with GD early on in this pregnancy and have handled it well enough. I’ve been on insulin since the beginning, and ever since I was able to find the right meals, my average blood sugar numbers have been great/in range. Keeping them mostly under 100. (My range is supposed to be 70-119). I haven’t changed anything about my diet, and yet my blood sugar numbers have been increasing. My cravings for sugar are getting harder to control (I haven’t given in) but even though I’m eating pretty much just eggs and pure protein, my numbers have been spiking. I don’t even eat the amount of carbs I’m supposed to. Because anything more than 7g of carbs are spiking my numbers. Baby is growing fine, so I’m not worried.

I just feel so defeated. My fasting numbers are 120+. I even increased my insulin before my first meal this morning and it still spiked. And I just had some egg bites. Which only have about 3g of carbs and 20g of protein. Logically that shouldn’t spike my numbers. I had a mental breakdown yesterday because it’s so frustrating trying to do well for this pregnancy, only to keep failing. I know 1 or 2 bad numbers isn’t the end of the world, but my averages lately have been bad.

I miss when my reading chart was nearly 100% covered in blue. And yet everyday the red keep creeping more and more. No one else in my close relationship has experienced GD, so I feel so alone in this. I know it’s supposed to get harder to control later in the pregnancy. But when my averages are this bad, I feel like I’m failing my baby. I’ve been so scared with this pregnancy. I don’t know what to do. Everyday it gets worse and harder to control.