Hi guys, I’m new here and never posted in the group before. I’ve always struggled with my weight (amongst other mental health concerns), and have always been overweight. I’ve always had issues with body image, but lately it’s been so much worse. I’m trying to eat healthier, calorie counting, and getting 30 minutes daily exercise as much as I can. But I have bad days where I binge. I’ve always had trouble with binging. Last night I had a giant piece of chocolate cake late at night (those period cravings get me bad 😩) and next thing I know I found myself forcing myself to vomit in the bathroom. I don’t think I’ve ever done that before and it seemed so impulsive. The problem is is that I liked it and how it made me feel. I didn’t feel full any longer and I felt like it allowed me to fully feed into those cravings without feeling so guilty. I don’t know how I feel about it. I don’t know where these body issues are coming from lately - I’ve spent my days off crying in bed and not getting up all day, just sleeping because I’m too sad about how I look, and if I’m asleep all day that means I won’t eat. It started off healthy, it really did, but I wasn’t seeing results. I know how bad this is for people but I’m not at a point where I actively want help yet. But I think posting here is a good start for when I do. I’ve deleted most of my social media as well so it’s not a trigger for me, seeing women I would give anything for to look like. Idk what I’m looking for here really but I think just venting and admitting to it may be helpful..I’m not sure