Bitter sweet

I’m supposed to start my period in four days. I felt a little crampy and decided to test. Well, looks like we’ll be welcomed with baby number 2. ♥️ My dad passed away unexpectedly recently and he was my best friend. This is incredibly bitter sweet. I want nothing more than to pick up the phone and tell him he’s going to be a papa again. It’s so hard to feel as excited as I was with my daughter when I am grieving so terribly. I am praying for a boy so I can name him after my dad who was the absolute best grandpa in the world. God this hurts