I have recently ended a relationship of almost 8 years. I love him, and I miss him but I lost myself and who I was while being with him. We are opposite to each other and I changed who I was to show him I was in it with him. I pushed people away, I put him first and I feel as although we had some great moments together, I was making myself small to keep this going and thinking he would change his ways and meet me half way. I lost who I was, the person I used to be, the little confidence I had. I waited for him to change and over time I built this idea of what we could be amd honestly speaking we could have been. He loves me ans he has never cheated on me, but he made me believe he knew more than I did, and some things I would say he would make me feel stupid (without intention). He has issues to work on, but I can't wait anymore, years of waiting for a change have hurt me and I don't know how to get back to that version of me. I haven't experienced "life" the way I should have and now that I'm 2 Years away from bein 30... I don't know how to start, I don't know how to even pose for a picture, I feel weird and I think I look weird, I have no confidence, and I don't know how to get back out there. I lost that motivation, and I dont know how I will get it back.... I just wanna know If anyone out there has been through something similar and how did they start again from the beginning and getting out there... and if anyone has even experienced this but have gotten back together time after... I love him and he loves me.. I do think we were meant to be, but it was the wrong time, right now hurts being with him 😔 I'm in desperate need of advice or just words, this sucks a lot.