Hi, I’m 23 years old. I think I have a eating disorder!

I was always skinnier! (125lbs) I was super active in high school. I played soccer and was always doing something! I got pregnant at 17. And dropped out of regular school and enrolled into online learning and moved in with my boyfriend so we could raise our baby together.

Well I had a miscarriage at almost 12 weeks. It broke me. Even being so young I was not mentally prepared for that. And I couldn’t help but think it was my fault. I had already started gaining a little weight from the pregnancy and not being so active. After my miscarriage I went thru a bad depression. And started putting on weight. I’d get my mindset right and start working out hard and loose weight then gain it back. I started binge eating and it kept packing on.

I’m 2019 I found out I was pregnant with my son. Had a full term healthy happy pregnancy. But I gained 30 pounds. I didn’t get lucky and loose it all after I had him. But I just let it go I enjoyed my baby and just kept doing life.

Fast forward to 2021 I’m on depo now which I think it making it harder for me but I told my self this is my time I’m gonna loose the weight! I had gotten to my heighest weight of 230lbs. I did good lost 25 pounds. Was so happy but I caved and started eating again gained it all back!! Now I can’t stop again. I need help and idk what to do. I wanna be healthy and happy again. I wanna be someone my son can be proud of. Weight issues run in my family. And growing up with a mom over 300lbs was not fun.

Someone please help me! I’m desperate!