Please don’t be rude , I myself judge myself for getting to this point even tho I know my self worth and I’m not insecure .

My man is very handsome , brings lots to the table and has a VERY big past with both genders(we both bi) . One day I decided to ask his body count and he said in the 80-90 range . We talked more n He also said his body count prob wouldn’t be that high if he didn’t choose the career he did which require him to be with ppl almost everyday ,days at a time even . He’s also said to me b4 he used to go to parties often and such etc but I don’t think he’s ashamed that of but I’m not sure .From this day on it started to haunt me ,it made me view him COMPLETELY different, over a course of months I started to think things like , “this sex is prob being compared to somebody else in his head” “nothing we do together is special to him bc he’s already done it , dinner dates ,girls on social media I see I ask myself did he fuck her?, EVERYTHING. We went on a date and he pointed out a nail salon that is actually a “wh*re house” I jokingly said why would u know u been? But got a reply of “not that one” I couldn’t get over that he’s PAID for body’s and been to strip clubs and such . Ik this was the past , but I get afraid he settled with me , I asked him is anything special to you anymore ? He replies “it’s not supposed to always be special “ I know that tho. He always showers me w love and does almost anything I ask him but we do have some really rough patches . I can’t get over this . The crazy part is , im not insecure with myself , I’ve seen some of the girls he’s f*cked and I don’t feel intimidated at all , I know my self worth and I’ve always been told I could model and such but -It feels like I’ve fell into almost a OCD like category with this retroactive jealousy I’m feeling lost ,it’s taking up all my thinking . Pleas help . I have the “we all die anyway mindset “ but it doesn’t help atm I feel so childish for this .he’s a very nonchalant guy who is brutally honest w me , which is good and bad but I’m just ranting rn .