Disconnected from my first born 😭

To start off, I love my first born so much! I really do! I think he has ADHD and he’s super wild. He doesn’t listen to me for nothing, which make it that much more harder to connect and bond with him.

My second born is super sweet and I bond with him just find. He listens to me and love on me.

I’m 3 months PP and just had my third baby. I wished I can connect and bond with my first born. He’s 4 years old and when I get on to him he says, “mommy doesn’t love me” 🥺

That hurts my mommy heart more than anything. I love him so much. I don’t think he should have that much emotions and anger as a 4 year old.

What am I doing wrong???? I try so hard to bond with him. I feel like I failed him. 😭