Anorexia nervosa

I am 32 years old and I have anorexia nervosa. I went from 160 to my current weight of 94.5.. I am 5’4 so that’s underweight for my height. I am trying really hard to recover from this and eat more, but every time I do, I feel guilty and obsess over it. I am worried that I will gain weight too fast.. but I’m literally craving sweets. All I eat is salads and fruits.. even tho I eat healthy, I won’t eat more than 900 calories a day. I deleted my fitness pal and put away my food scale, but I’m having a hard time putting away my bathroom scale.. i weigh myself every day at the same time, nude. I get discouraged if it goes up.. and I just end up restricting more.. however, my weight has been fluctuating from 93 to 94..I have completely lost my period 4 months ago.. I am really struggling with this!! I have three kids and they need me.. so I keep thinking about them.. This is just really hard .