how to stop being jealous of my bd?

i work a full time job and go to school full time all while being a full time single mom. and now i’m crying i don’t have money for daycare i don’t have money for food today literally not eating anything till dinner today because we barely have food to last us the weekend i don’t have any gas in my car.

meanwhile he’s over there taking care of emotionally and financially 3 kids that ARENT even his, he probably has a stocked fridge he goes out every weekend does whatever he wants but can never help out with daycare or diapers or clothes or food for his own child.

i have the dna test set up for monday but lord knows how long it’ll take for me to actually receive any child support since i started this process in september and we’re just now doing this in february.