Please I need support

My baby is 6 weeks old

Went in NICU for 6 days for Meconium aspiration

Once they gave me the green light to Breastfeed him I was going there every three hours to feed him and then pump for the next feed

Anyhow bottom line I tried my best to maintain breastfeeding as I didn’t have it with my first born he was also in NICU for 2 weeks and then developed nipple confusion and it caused me ppd because I couldn’t breastfeed him but thank god I was blessed to pump for him for 11 months

The issue now my newborn is not gaining weight and actually went below his birth weight.

I did my best went to board certified Breasfeeding councilors, pediatricians, they didn’t find a problem and asked me to keep on offering my breasts taking supplements, and feed on demand! We did weighted feeding and found he is having acceptable amount not a proper one!

Honestly I don’t feel comfortable seeing my baby not gaining weight! There are enough wet diapers and stool but still the weight issue!

I decided to start supplementing with formula but still I’m bumped and triggered by the judgement and the society I even can’t see posts about exclusive breastfeeding as I feel that my body failed me for not producing enough milk for my boy

Plus I wanted this time to do everything right but I couldn’t :(