Is it really that amazing?

I started doing drugs because I was in a very bad abusive relationship and I feel like I really lost my mind for a minute, and he was a drug addict so the drugs were accessible.

I kinda went on a bender trying to find dope. The dope road if you will, and I went everywhere.

I met some of the most sick and evil people and then I met people who were amazing souls, just lost in addiction. The things they talked to me about, the things that they told me they did for their dope or heroin.

Everywhere I went I stuck out like a sore thumb and every drug dealer I met warned and warned me that I was too pure for the type of life that drugs would have me in. I was literally told that I was being protected by people at these places I was hanging out at because they saw my innocence but if I continued I wouldn’t be innocent anymore. I saw what people did to get their fix and it straightened my ass out.

But I came out of it and I’m sober now and every time I tell people I just quit like that and never looked back, they tell me that is literally amazing because when people start that shit they don’t stop. At least not for a very long time after they hit rock bottom.

Is it really that amazing? I want to add a secret here.

The idea of being around any drug or doing any drug ever again scares the fuck out of me.

I went to some evil ass places that I look back on sober and I’m like what the fuck? It makes me feel extremely anxious. Really bad things could’ve happened and I’m lucky. You really do have more of your fucking brain when you are sober.

Another thing i cannot get away from these drugs. I have already flushed a gram of meth down the toilet because I found it at my friends house after a party when we were cleaning up. The little whisper in my ear to keep it SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME so I ran to the toilet and flushed it. Im SCARED to do drugs again because of the shit I saw and the people I met when I was on them. I went down a bad path and they sent my ass back home. I had someone real big and bad look at me and say “someone take her home. That baby don’t belong here.”

On god they literally sent me home