Well as of now, i dont expect anyone to throw me a baby shower. The family i have close by aint really into that, my siblings that would have done it are far, my best friend who threw my last shower ditched me for being pregnant. I do have other friends that are very close but i dont think they will do that. One that mentioned it has 2 kids 2years , and 9 months so i think it would be much for her. My other friend aint into parties. And the rest arent that close. Guess the blow from my best friend has me doubting my value to my friends. Anyways. Have been going threw a lot and i feel i need to throw a shower so i celebrate this baby and get reminded that i have people in my life who can still be happy for me. Also i havent gone out in months since covid and i feel i need sth to just cheer me up. I just havent celebrated life in 2 years. Turned 30 and did absolutely nothing. The last time i ever really celebrated life was my sons forst bd 2 years ago. I dont need baby stuff. I kept all my sons things and i dont really care, will use them even if i get a girl. Just want a celebration around people i love. So was thinking of making meals, and inviting everyone. Can even tell them not to bring gifts. Would this be weird?

I would have done a gender reveal instead of a shower but my husband doesnt want to find out gender so even if he wont be around for the gender reveal, i cant make a gender reveal or tell anyone lest they talk to him like he knows. Personally i will find out because i wanna know. Do you guys have any ideas?