’m so lost I generally just need to vent. I’ve been with my husband 6 years, married 3 years. We have a son together and he has 2 other children who we share custody with and we have one more on the way. I’m only 6/7 weeks so very very early days but I honestly feel like I am alone in this marriage. I have endometriosis and pcsos so having a baby is a miracle alone. I had surgery last year and told I will struggle having anymore children and I’ll need a hysterectomy in the next few years (I’m 25) so don’t want one if I can help it. Husband is all up for it. I told him I wanted another baby and he said no. He was always aware I wanted 2 kids when we got together, he had 2 already and I wanted that aswell for us. He said fine but when I said I want another he said no. Anyway I’m the end he agreed and said I can stay off birth control we could try for a month if it doesn’t happen then that’s it. I said no that’s not fair knowing full well it will take much longer for a month to even let my body recover let alone fall pregnant. He agreed. Had sex knowing I was on nothing. Found out I was pregnant 6 months later and he says he only agreed thinking I wouldn’t actually get pregnant? I meant what?! I’m really not Forcing hun into another child every time we had sex I reminded him I was not on birth control and he diddnt care and carried on. Anyway fast forward. I had to go for a scan as I was bleeding and in pain, I went on my own as he ‘was at work’ he works with his dad and is more than able to get a few hours off. If anything his dad would have made him if he knew. Doctor thought it was etopic so had to go back the following week, again on my own. I’m scared. I feel lost. I honestly feel like this marriage is one sided. I don’t feel loved. I don’t feel like he wants me or is even with me atall. I don’t think he has had an affair or is. He doesn’t talk to anyone other than his dad so I don’t know how he could have the time. We have a lot of debt and we are working to pay that off but when I get paid, he takes my wages without even asking me or telling me and he hides it. I literally have nothing. I don’t know how much longer I can go on like this. Part of me thinks do I take my son and leave or have an abortion which I do not want. But would that make him love me. He only ever loved me before our son when I was a size 8 and had all the energy in the world. Now I’m a uk 12 and exhausted. I don’t know if I can cope anymore. I literally feel like I have nothing