Postpartum hair loss... please be kind.

How do you deal with it??? I'm not handling this well at all. pregnancy, birth and postpartum have been easy for me but losing my hair is seriously affecting my mental health. I don't even want to touch my hair or shower anymore. I can't handle the clumps of hair that fall out. You can see my scalp all over the place. I have always had super thick, long hair and it's literally the only thing I find pretty about myself and now it's falling out by the handfull literally. Please be kind I can't take criticism right now. Please tell me it gets better? Will I get my hair back? how long does this take? How do you work though this? I feel so ugly. ( 4 months pp and 25 years old.)