Afraid to celebrate pregnancy

Hi, just wanted to vent, thank you for listening:

So I had a miscarriage last year and am now pregnant due end of August. So far everything has been progressing great, baby is good. I am having trouble finding joy in the process.

For example we waited until 13 weeks after genetic testing came back ok to tell anyone. And I have this fear of telling people and then it doesn’t work out. Of course our families are so happy and my mom immediately posted it to Facebook and I was afraid.

I want to have the joyous photos and announcements etc but I’m scared. How do get past that, how do you accept and find joy?

I love our little boy and my mantra for 2022 is to manifest unimaginable joy but I’m having trouble accepting that everything is good. And I have No reason to fear this little dude has had a strong heartbeat, all the bits are in place. I am healthy.