Boyfriends 🌽 use - girl in need of advice💭

I’ve been with my boyfriend over a year now he’s always used porn behind my back but I never knew it & I didn’t think he would even do that

Once we’d been together a while I thought to myself I don’t really like the idea of him getting off to another woman so I mentioned that it made me uncomfortable and I just don’t see why he does it when he has me? And he said he would stop.

I caught him doing ‘it’ once since I first mentioned that I didn’t like it. it was very awkward and we went on a break and got back together and he said again he would stop.

Ever since I’ve just sort of stopped bringing it up cause I know it’ll either be a lie or I’ll get my feelings hurt. But sometimes it will come up in convo & he will reassure me that he doesn’t watch it anymore. However he did mention if he does he will watch cartoon as it isn’t as bad and not a real person.

Yesterday I came home from work and saw that my boyfriend had done his ‘stuff’ don’t ask me how, I just knew. So I mentioned it to him and he was like oh I was just laying there charging my phone. (I already knew it was a lie) he later said how did you know I was doing that?? I promise you it was over pics and videos of us I didn’t watch 🌽 please believe me. So I did. I got out of my mood and forgave him.

This morning I used his phone to google something and saw in his search porn! So he lied to me. For starters he always says he never watches it anymore which I believed for so many months now. And then lied straight to my face last night saying he only watched us.

It makes me feel so sad and I don’t know what to do. I see people on google forums say it’s normal that men do that and I’ll never find a man who doesn’t. But I can’t shake it I think it’s wrong.

We have an amazing sex life we even had sex the night before then he goes and watches it the next morning? I don’t get why.

What do I do guys :(