Just complaining

I’m have no one to complain to so here I am. This is my second pregnancy, first boy and the testosterone is SERIOUS. I’m finding I am much more bearable to myself and my family if I lift weight a minimum of twice a week. With work schedules that basically all I can get. Well I’m missing my workout this weekend and I’m unbelievably upset about it. I already snapped at my husband’s grandma yesterday for trying to get my toddler to do tricks like she’s a damn dog AND I am supposed to see my grandma tomorrow so I REALLY needed this workout to calm down my temper before subjecting my family to it. (Side note I also have PCOS so my baseline testosterone has always been much more than the norm. Plus boy pregnancy testosterone = I’m a damn monster.)

I am carrying on with life with a constant flow of tears streaming down my face. These hormones are killing me. I don’t have the equipment, space, or privacy to work out at home. Part of what’s helpful is getting out of the house as I’m a SAHM.

No looking for solutions. I know there aren’t any. Just complaining to anyone who might get it or give a poop. Thanks for listening to be bitch. Have a good day.