Feeling hurt

I’m not writing this asking if I should stay or go, because I think I already know the answer. I’m just looking for validation because I feel like maybe I’m just wrong.

I have been with my boyfriend for four years, so throughout the pandemic. As I have been careful with exposure and PPE, I haven’t gotten sick in years, not even a cold. So a few days ago when I got a cold, it hit really hard, and I had to take off of work. I felt awful.

Anytime bf has been sick, I have taken care of him. He asked me why once and I said, “that’s what you do when someone you love is sick.” So this week, when he pretty much ignored me as I went through boxes of tissues, walked the dog in the snow, and tried to keep going, I was deeply hurt. Now, it’s not like he didn’t do anything. He asked if he could pick up medicine. I said yes, and he said he was having a bad day and it was very inconvenient of me to ask this. I wished I hadn’t said anything.

I kept making myself tea to soothe my sore throat while he watched tv and played video games. All day, I had a fever and sat in bed, only getting up to walk the dog a couple times. The air was very dry so I went to wash the humidifier, and he said I shouldn’t use it bc it makes him sick. I couldn’t believe what he said. I was so angry I just kept repeating “if I clean it, can I please use it?” I was in pain from my raw nose. He said ok, and asked if he could wash it (I rarely get mad at him). I didn’t want to hear about how I made him waste time by washing it so I did it myself.

Again, I’m really hurt. He’s just ignored me. He never texted during the day or asked if I was feeling okay. My coworkers were more attentive than he was. I feel so stupid for all the care I put into this relationship.

I know that it’s over for me.