Im at my breaking point, i thought i found the love of my life and i moved to kansas with him after we had our first son (my 2nd) then he hit me and gave me a concussion when he was drunk, so i moved back across country (to nevada) after having to room with a random girl i met online and working 2 jobs (in oklahoma) and by the time i was done busting my butt to get enough funds to come back home, i find out im 19 weeks pregnan with my 3rd baby boy.. i cant do the adoption thing cause i just cant idk why i cant imagine ever doing that.. however i dont judge those that do. But im currently 7 months pregnant, my mom who promised to help me with childcare so i could work and provide for my babies, she now backed out and decided its more important for her to work at a deli, my dad is also one who begged me to let them help me and he just spent 20k on plastic surgeries for my mom so now theres no money anywhere to help me at all. My mom also had stolen my kids social security cards a few months back when she was cheating on my dad and left them with that dude in utah and the guy wont send them back to me so i have no idea how i can get childcare unless its a babysitter and i dont know anyone besides my mom out here... and now my parents look at me like im a stupid whore and a mooch for getting knocked up by someone i loved and was engaged to and then coming back home for support and help.. ive always been an introvert and my families not liked amongst my other relatives so im not welcome anywhere.. the only other place i have to go is back to kansas with my exes parents and to me thats terrifying.. i applied for gov assistance, snap, and wic. Just waiting to hear back, but i cant do mental abuse anymore from my family... i have 6 mental disorders i deal with everyday which my mother says i lie about? I went to the mental hospital and stayed over a month to get diagnosed.. But i dont know what to do anymore i feel so alone and i just want to give up... i feel like im unwanted everywhere and im just going to end up ruining my kids lives if i stick around..