Idk if anyone has ever felt like garbage. That’s me right now i finally finished college with honors, got a job, a house . Everything I though I wanted. Inside I’m completely broken . As I look around me nothing brings me joy is just I do to do , cause I have to. I’m so drained none is proud of me no one cares to hear me to everyone in my life I just have to be ok but I’m not. I never can be sad cry or else I’m some type of loser. My mom puts me down so much she is never proud of me she doesn’t listen. All she does is call me fat , tell me that no one will love me cause I don’t value my self. That I’m just a tool for men to please themselves all I am is a slut. All cause I had sex that hurts me much. To my sister I’m just crazy and out of control and whatever I feel is just stupid because I need to let go of things. She constantly call me crazy a bitch that she wishes I was gone from their lives. That whenever I’m not around life’s better. I always have tried to please them I never can. I’m so upset all the time is so toxic but I know if I leave they won’t talk to me and I have no one else in my life. My dad and his family have never talked to me like I do t exist. The only guy I though would be there and who I gave myself to just ditched me and left . I don’t want to be alone but I really wish I could leave and start a new live far away from all this because is just making me feel like garbage all over again.