Any other Mama's out there battling anxiety/depression while pregnant?

I have a history of major depression and anxiety. I haven't really been depressed baf enough to take meds, but for the past year, I have been taking a daily med for anxiety. The one I was one, isn't safe for baby, so I stopped taking it immediately one I found out I was pregnant. I was offered a 'safer' alternative, but I really rather not take any chances so I declined. Now it's been about 6 wks, I'm 10wks, and I can tell things are beginning to become a struggle. I know that my hormones aren't helping the issue, but I'm so frustrated that I'm sinking into this hole. I know taking meds is an option, but the thought of taking them and putting my baby at risk just makes me more anxious and sad. I feel like I'm being a bad mom already. My boyfriend is such a sweetheart and he wants to help, but can't and that leaves him frustrated as well. I feel so lost. Has anyone else gone through something like this?