My EDD is 31st of December.

My dr is leaving 23rd-29th. I'm freaking out. He's a private practice dr and he agrees with all my wants/requests and is the most evidence based dr I've met/found. I adore him. I trust him.

I didn't want a hospital birth to begin with and I'm still very scared and upset about it, but was finally coming to terms with it becuase i trust him so much. .. and now i may get stuck with whoever is on staff. I'm so scared they're going to cut me or try to force things on/in me.

I don't know what to do. I've got an ultrasound Monday and I am pretty sure he's going to give me the option to induce bc he knows how upset i am about it and that I'm a sexual abuse victim. I'll be 39 wks and i know she'll be healthy... but it feels wrong. I'm so broken. I'm literally considering the thing i said i never would, inducing around my OBs vacation schedule. 😭😭😭