I Want Him!!! 😁😍😬😫

Thanks for the responses. I’ve decided several times now…every time that I’m not gonna do this again. I’m gonna end things and I am worth more than this and worth being with someone who wants to be with me for me and not just sex. I always get sucked back in though. He’s always so caring and interested for awhile and when we’re hanging out which makes me fall for him more but it never lasts and I know. I get it. I really wanted to talk to him and tell him how I feel but he’s hardly talked to me since I saw him Friday. I’m so bugged and over this constant cycling. He clearly doesn’t feel the same so I’m going to just end it. Maybe he’ll realize when I’m gone that he misses me but I doubt it. I’m sad and gonna miss him but I need to do this. I need to do this for me. It brings me down every time and I’m tired of it. I known I’ve done this to myself. I realize that. I was just hoping he’d change. I really am going to miss him but I know there is a good guy out there who will want to be with me for me! Can’t find him while I’m obviously wasting my time with my FWB. Help me be strong! Thanks again for the responses!!!

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I really wish my FWB wanted something serious!! I’ve fallen for him hard. I know that wasn’t supposed to happen but it did. I need to have a talk with him but I can’t bring myself to do it. I’m so scared it’ll make everything awkward and end things. I don’t want this to end. I love being with him. I keep holding on hoping that maybe he’ll change his mind one day and want something more but idk. I did tell him a couple of months ago that I can’t do the casual thing anymore. I want something more on the serious side so I’m torn about hanging out and being with him cuz in the beginning he told me he didn’t want anything serious. (We haven’t talked about it since the very beginning). I told him I really like him and love hanging out with him and we’ve become really good friends. (I didn’t specifically say I had feelings for him but said I like him and he’s a really good guy, I love being with him and we’ve become really good friends.) That’s why I’m so torn cuz I don’t want to lose him but also can’t keep doing the causal thing cuz that’s not what I really want. He said he respected that I was honest with him and thanks for telling him. He said he really doesn’t want to lose me either and we can keep hanging out and don’t have to do anything sexual. He’ll respect my decision and it would really suck to lose me. He said the sex is great too but he’d hate to lose me. We’ve known each other almost a year. Since I told him, he seemed a lot more interested and made me feel like he wanted more too and we do still have sex. I should’ve stopped myself but I really like him. I thought he changed after that but I feel like it’s back to how it was before. I just really wish he wanted something more serious!! I really like him…I’m so dumb 🤦🏼‍♀️😫 I’m not really asking for advice or opinions or anything. Just needed to let it out soooo if you took the time to read, thank you!! 💜😄 Just on my mind as I’m trying to fall asleep. Trying to get it out and clear my head haha 💫🌙