Has anyone Been here before ?

Have anyone stayed with their partner only because you are terrify you will loose the legal battle to him? Let me explain a bit in that way everyone can understand better, he makes 3 times more what I do and I know he will fight for the sole custody of our daughter with everything he has, how I know ? because he has tell me that one time we talked about divorce because we were not agreeing on anything about our life as partners not as parents.

He is one of the best dad I have ever seen, he loves our daughter, he’s a provider and he has never ever been cheap with me and I can buy whatever I want for our home or myself etc he’s a good partner for the most part and I’m not sure people might considered what I’m about to say abuse but I’m so tired of this and I don’t want this for my whole life, know we are going to couple therapy but I don’t know if it’s working. our sex life was good up to a month a go we usually had 3 times a week sex, it’s been a month without anything. I’m trying to give all the picture here sorry if my thoughts are all over the place, anyways when he gets angry… well that’s when the things happens, sometimes not all the time but often I have to walk on my tippy toes for him not to get annoyed like he gets annoyed really easily and just with one thing he will be angry and will bailed in our plans we have for that day our make a fuzz about it

He plays video games in specific days a week in that way he can also spend time together after we put our daughter to bed, because we have a family routine that we never break but in the last couple weeks he’s been playing every night after our girl goes to bed. I know he had really stressful weeks at work and I didn’t want to bother him and let him relax there but today I was watching tv and he came and joined me like for 5 minutes and he was standing up and I asked him where he was going and said I’m going to play video games and I got upset immediately and said well dude it’s been weeks we haven’t hang out and I was letting you relax but I mean I feel completely ignore, I really wish i didn’t say anything he starting raising his voice saying I was never happy with anything that he was doing, that I was always complaining about he gamming etc which I know I had complain on the past this is why now he has his specific days to play but since he had stressful weeks at work

I wasn’t even saying anything when he was playing on the nights we were supposed spend time together. after I didn’t answer anything to him saying I wasn’t never satisfied he proceed to tell me I f*** hate you know to be honest this is the most awful thing he has tell me because I really felt he meant it and I didn’t response then he proceed to tell me you are the worst and still didn’t reply and after that he told me I was a piece of shit and all this is happening while I’m trying to pickup my things from the living room because i didn’t want to be next to him anymore after he “stayed” with me because I make him feel bad for wanting to play I’m like go and shove that video game whenever you feel more comfortable with.

Know my point here is I do love this men but I feel like I’m not in love with him anymore, I love him because he’s the dad of my daughter and we have had amazing memories together all around the world but I seriously don’t want this kind of aggression on my life. I swear before I would never stayed and experience abused and like I said for some people this might Not be abused but for me it’s.

But I’m also terrified to ask for divorced because I’m scare I will loose my baby girl. I feel he can say I’m instable due to the fact I have ptsd and I go to therapy. I don’t do Drugs and maybe I drink once a week one beer on the weekends but that’s all Have anyone been on my situation ? I’m not scare to start from 0 but I’m so scared he will take my girl away, he’s dad is well connected and they know a lot about law what would you do ? Thanks for reading and I’m sorry for the long vent.