hey. i’m 23 with 2 kids 3 y/o and 1 y/o possibly one otw… but it all started with my oldest after giving birth to her was a very joyful thing i love her with all my heart but i moved back in with my mom before she even turned 1 the dad has no contact at all and it’s not because of me i would love for them to spend time together but yeah he doesn’t do anything for her and she doesn’t know him so i guess it’s best this way will never be the first guy to break her heart. my 1 y/o me and his dad are something but he doesn’t help at all willingly if i ask it’s a maybe if he has the fund’s understandable but he doesn’t come get him he barley sees us i love him more than anything of course but i feel really alone in all of this and to think i’m gonna have another one of his kids is sad and happy at the same time. but back to me i’ve been really depressed for a while now and i love my kids but all the crying and repeating and yelling is really driving me crazy and all we do is sit in the house all they know is me and i really want to take them out but i don’t have a job cause i know nobody is going to watch screaming crying babies and i can’t drive so we are literally just stuck in one place and the “friends” that i do have don’t help me the way that i help them if you understand what i mean. it’s like i can jump for them when they need help but when i’m begging for fucking help nobody hears it and it’s really heartbreaking cause i knew them damn near my whole life and my bd with him it’s like he just bypasses over my feelings it’s really hard when everybody shuts your feelings out but they can express their feelings whenever and however and you have to listen or they think its fuck them when it’s actually me feeling like this but who cares right ? 🥲 i just wanna die anyway!