OBGYN PTSD 🥺😖

I have had 3 consecutive miscarriages and I’m scheduled for the first ultrasound of this pregnancy tomorrow. I have the worst anxiety. They have started letting spouses in again and I don’t even want my husband to go because I’m afraid he’ll just be disappointed. My beta testing went well(more than doubled) and I’ve not had any issues but I still can’t shake the past trauma of going to the OBGYN for a prenatal appointment. Just wanted to vent.

I’m wishing all you who wish for a family, the best of luck. 💕💕💕💕