I need to vent 😪

Ok so lady me and my baby father been together for 5 years ❤ my problem is I always gotta ask for sex and his response is we both gotta be in the mood or put your mouth on it and its gonna happen because you doing that it's like I always gotta ask or I always gotta give oral and at this point I feel like I'm begging for it .. maybe I'm not gud enough or maybe I'm not pretty enough because it's really pushing me away like what's wrong with me ...