My best friend is pregnant...

Hannah • Wife & Mommy. All my dreams have come true.
I love my best friend to death, she's basically the sister I never had. As much as I love her, she makes terrible life decisions, but I never judge her for them! She's just always been a mess, she ran off and got married to a military guy right after high school, to get divorced a year later, lived with multiple other guys in the mean time, had a relationship with a MARRIED MAN, broke that off to get into a ANOTHER RELAIONSHIP WITH ANOTHER MARRIED MAN who left his wife for her. They just started "dating" this summer, his divorce was final in September but they have been living together before that. Me and her are both 23 and the guy she is with is 38!
And yesterday she told me she was pregnant... Of course I told her how happy I was for her and how exciting the news was but I couldn't help but feel kind of jealous and angry! Me and my husband have been married for 2 and a half years and have been ttc for the past couple months. It's just frustrating to me that she's gets "rewarded" for her terrible decisions. I was REALLY hoping to be pregnant this month (AF due right before Christmas so there is still a chance) but is it bad that I don't even want to be pregnant with her?! Would love some insight from you ladies! 😘