Feeling robbed of joy

HN

I am scheduling my c-section today. I was elated for the birth of this baby. Was thrilled to test the limits of my power and strength to birth this baby, being my third and final. It's for the safety of our little girl, yes. I am just so sad my plans took a complete 180°, days before her due date.

My husband doesn't understand my feelings. He doesn't know why it's affected my mood so much. Maybe I'm just being salty and need to get over it. I don't know. Can anybody relate to these feelings of severe disappointment?