Frustrated with my body

I’m 40+2. Due to some complications, doc doesn’t want me to carry passed 41 weeks. We’ve been actively trying to get this baby out since 39 weeks. These false labor contractions are now wrapping around my back and causing a shit ton of pressure in my tailbone. I’m so fucking uncomfortable. I’m getting really angry and frustrated. This doesn’t feel like the beautiful last experience I wanted. This is my third birth and it’s as if it will never come. I’m so miserable. I have a terrible mental attitude, and I just need some words of encouragement bc I am down in the dumps right now. My back is killing me and these false cramps causing back pain are just taking away any sliver of happiness I can muster.