Is the pill ruining me?

So I went on the pill shortly after I started dating my boyfriend. My problem is that I feel my libido should be way higher than it is now and I've heard that sometimes happens when you're on the pill. I also started struggling more with my mental health and I'm wondering if that could be a cause.

It's so frustrating because I really want to have more sex and enjoy it, but I am too paranoid about getting pregnant so even with the pill I am always stressing. I've always been irregular so I feel like if I stop taking the pill I'll get even more paranoid about pregnancy as I'll probably have an irregular cycle again.

Other methods (except cindoms but I don't trust them alone) seem to be so intrusive I honestly feel I am trapped to the pill that makes me miserable.

Has anyone got any similar experiences?