I am 45 yrs old and have two kids. Had my son at 39 and daughter at 42. Got pregnant very easily both times.

I already feel like I’m going to be working until I die because I’ll be putting them through college then LOL. I am so tired don’t know if I can handle another newborn phase, with the intense lack of sleep. I worry I will die while my kids are young. My relationship with my partner is not great.

BUT!!!!! But in my heart my kids have another sibling. I want that for them. I want one last baby!!!