No one to talk to.

I didn’t finish my two year old sons birthday cake before his Zoom party today w family so I put two candles in a scoop of ice cream with some Oreos and we sang happy birthday. My husband said I embarrassed him and that I want remorseful and that it “upset” “disappointed” and “disgusted” him because I ruined our sons birthday. All after I had already apologized. I didn’t have time yesterday because I was giving baths and doing my 4 year old daughters hair plus work meetings and work tasks. I started it but didn’t finish it. I should’ve have started earlier but I’ve been busy all week and he came up w the Zoom idea on like Tues or Wednesday but my week was already full and I was so tired… I asked what I can say to make him feel better and he won’t answer. He just wants to stay mad I guess. I’m just so upset. I didn’t want to disturb my peace but beating myself up about not having finished and I just.. I don’t know. I’m struggling.. I have been this whole time. I just needed to vent.