My first c section was emergency 10 years ago. I was induced on a Thursday and had the baby early Sunday morning. I couldn’t dilate enough to push and it was traumatic. I lost half of my blood during the surgery and I remember seeing the reflection and the nurse telling me mam your heart rate is 180 you need to relax. Sooo needless to say I have PTSD from that.

My c section is scheduled for the end of May. I have anxiety in general, but I’m just so nervous. Everyone says it’s so relaxed when it’s scheduled, but it’s me, I’m not relaxed lol. I’m sure they have to deal with this often and they’ll understand that I’m nervous if my heart rate is a little fast? 😭